~ Down-Time with Heaven ~

Within minutes - not hours - I felt it coming on.

That ache that starts in the weary bones, joints, head in vice and becomes

visible

in glassy water blood-shot eyes.

Throat scorched fire, can't swallow.  Cough wracking every fiber of the body.

Ears piercing plugged shut.  Fever beading hot on forehead.

It had overcome me before I even knew it ... whatever this sickness is ...

it found mom. 

I don't have time to be sick.  What mother ever does?

It's down time for me, when so many responsibilities
are swirling up - in my little world. 

Dog to walk - bills to be paid - piano lessons to teach -

kids to pick up from school -

dinner to be made - homework - housework ...

Who takes care of mom when she's sick?

It is in times like this that simplifying takes precedence
as my body slowly heals. 

I give in. 

What else can I do? 

I give in to Him.

He who whispers gently to my aching:

"Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands"

-Isaiah 49:16

He knows what I am going through right now ... and

I am a beggar to Him, petitioning in desperate prayers of quick healing

for my weary, broken body. 

A beggar to Him - who lends me daily breath. 

Who blesses me with everything I need and have. 

He - who envelopes my feeble soul and body when nothing else can.  

Are we not all beggars? 

And then I wonder - how did He do it all?

Not only suffering my pain right now, but all of ours. 

I can't even fathom it. 

Right now in this moment of enduring pain,

how did He endure a million times more  -

than what I am and ever could?

Cocooned in softness with my loyal dog right beside me - while kids are at school - 

helps aid in the healing process the best Lucky knows how to do. 

Animals sense these things...

As  Heaven heals not only physically but

my heart and soul as well.

I rest in His comfort. 

This is who takes care of mom when nothing else can.

My own down-time with Heaven.

 "I will not leave you comfortless:

I will come to you."

-John 14:18